Sitting Alone....

Jul 17, 2012 -- 9:06pm

A great day on the air this morning...all days are good days but the interaction with listeners is always fun and had some great callers today. I always welcome anyone to pick up the phone and be part of the show at 226-8200. As the afternoon progressed back at home little Shayla and I realize the sun has peeked through the cloud filled sky and we decide to hit the pool. in just a couple of months she will be 5 and I'm pleased that she takes pride in wanting to do things herself rather than always have someone help her...getting her shirt off is still difficult for her so I give her the standard "arms up"....which I've found has worked in other situations....but we'll save that for another blog........so she says "I want to go change in my room"...she does and is ready to head to the back yard. We don't swim to long and realize the hot tub sounds a bit better on this unusually cool day. I slip out a bit quicker than her to brush and clean the pool....yes...I am my own cabana boy!....She plays and splashes around for a bit longer and we retreat inside. Again for her to say..."I want to dress myself Daddy!" She does a fine job and I finish up by brushing her beautiful strawberry red hair which she is convinced "smells like strawberries!" We watch Ice Age on video...just for a few minutes until her Mom shows up....I'm lucky have fresh flowers in the house often from the weddings I DJ....at the end of the night someone usually asks if I want to take some....I love having them on the table and Shayla is always wanting to grab from them to give her Mom some different kind of flower each time she picks her up....It's nice....who doesn't want flowers at the end of a hard day of work. They head out and I start my quiet evening....

I look over some messages I've shared with an out of town friend who has most recently become my sounding board for all of my thoughts. I can't thank her enough for listening to my hopes, my dreams, my ongoing struggles. Most of us have them....and I know she does too. It's funny how people find their way into your life......for a reason...a season...or for a lifetime. Our friendship was brief in the past but I really feel like it's ok for me to lean on her a bit and as I've told many of my friends, I'm a great listener, I'm there if you need to talk, to rant, to complain or share something deep and dark... and I can truly keep any secret that is told to me...ask me not to tell anyone....guess who I will tell....NO one! It's always nice to get ones thoughts out....helps clear the mind....get yourself your feelings and heart in check...

As much as I seem to complain or long for things not to be so quiet....I love these times.....the house is empty...cleaned....laundry finished and I can literally do whatever I want. I thought of calling friends to go grab some dinner but decide on dinner alone...I really don't mind heading out alone...A steak at Jack's Grill is calling me ...Ok a steak and a glass of red wine....As the quite alluring blonde hostess seats me It doesn't take me long to notice, among the full dining room I really am the only one seated alone.....The hostess, that I never did see smile through the night slips back to her post and quickly looks back over at me. our eyes meet ...as she looks away I realize...it's nothing.....by nothing I mean...she just looked....there is nothing that makes this the story that we tell about the first time that we met.....YES..I THINK TOO MUCH....but hey you never know! I've mention before that I think it's very rare that 2 people really connect. That a strong attraction is felt from one person and the other feels the same way. It's not just what I think...it's a fact......I've also said before that If you find that....give it a chance and whatever you have to do....don't let it slip away.

Dinner is great. I decline on the second glass of wine....finish the glass of water and head back home.... I slip out of my clothes, into some comfy shorts... As the ceiling fans churn a nice cool breeze my way...I light the so fresh smelling citrus birthday candle I received from a very special friend who still will need to take time in the future to share the bottle of fine red wine I am saving that came with the candle......and with that..... a night of sitting alone.......is quite fulfilling......

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